My Fitness Journey

1. It makes me feel physically uncomfortable and fat. I get tired and my energy levels go down by a lot.
2. It makes me feel unattractive and worthless. My self esteem goes down a lot and it makes me isolate myself socially.
3. The restrictive cycles after the binge are making me no longer enjoy food and keeping me from having meals with friends.
4. Binging distracts me mentally from more important things in life such as relationships, school and hobbies.
5. On the day of a binge, it is very hard to do work and it wastes days of productivity that are going to hurt me academically.
6. It is making you gain weight. You started off at 110 pounds during January and now you are nearing 120 pounds which is not a good look for you. (Remember Hawaii?)

So spring break is coming up and I want to look relatively fit for when I go to the beach and stuff. Alternate day fasting has worked for me in the past so that’s what I want to do this week in preparation.

Monday: Normal Eating

• Chicken breast with vegetables
• Lentil soup
• Banana with peanut butter and jam
• Walnuts
• Popcorn
• Green apple
• Chocolate bar
• Greek yogurt + chocolate espresso beans

Total: 1700

Tuesday: I binged again ughhh

• 3 hashbrowns
• egg whites with cheese
• almond butter with jam
• Yogurt and granola
• Chocolate bar

Total: 2100calories

I’m gonna go on a run so that I don’t gain weight for the day, which should hopefully burn 700-800 of these calories.

Wednesday: Eating at a deficit

Thursday: Fasting

Friday: Fasting

I know that this seems extreme at the moment, but I really do need to get some of the weight off from my binging sessions. My last binge session was on Saturday night and I think that I ate around 2000-3000 calories above my TDEE.

The places/moments when I binge:

1. Breakfast at Dewick
2. Vending machine late at night
3. After buying stuff at grocery store
4. Buying stuff at commons/student store
5. Postmates

Solutions to solving these issues:

• Stop having breakfast at Dewick during the weekends. It just never ends well even when you go in having healthy intentions and when you go with other people. It’s better if you just head to Tisch and then buy coffee later in the day.
• The vending machine is off limits. Write a note on your student ID that gives you a reality check.
• Stop buying food outside of what is offered in your meal plan.. You don’t have enough money anyway.

I’ve started this blog, because I want to make my health a priority at the moment and I think having a blog to document the journey will be constructive in the process. 

Habits I’m putting into action:

1. Stop binging/restricting cycle
2. Get to 105 lbs
3. Run 3-4 times per week
4. Stop sugar addiction

I’ll be writing several posts per week to write down some of the lessons that I learn throughout the process and to account for my progress.